while the sun is shining n the grass still green

last bbq of summer '08
been awhile since everybody got together n have fun n in good spirit welcoming the new juniors



ayu the professional ABC maker



the corn n the chicken



abg budin jual penyodok



aaaa...ngap!



personal fav pic of the day









kami-kami sekalian



*bertukar menjadi jagung bakar supergirl*



mus: akula jejaka plg perkasa!!



cowgirl working with the jagungs



almost the whole brumalindo gang

about a boy

this is wat my super mengarut bro up to



missing everyone soooo much!

his proud day

my dear bro finally finished his diploma!



he graduated the top of his class *proud*



the whole family sans the third and fourth bro were there
even nenek and ayah tok also there
*lil sis acted up so not in pic n i'm the photographer*



me n him



bdak kecik perasan grad jugak

p/s: saya sempat merase lemang Kijal before blk Canada
*heppi*

bullet train-ing thru life

this final week gonna be a super hectic one

just got back from KL last nite
gonna be driving to Bachok on Thursday n spend a nite there
pick up my baju raya
met up with relatives
visit my bro in his boarding school
coming back on Friday evening n early Saturday morning heading down south to Kemaman for bro's graduation
only have Sunday to jam everything into 2 bags n leave on a jet plane on Monday

wohohoho
n i have to study too *dang*
yikes yiki yikes

now, where do i stash the ADHD pills?

stupid theft

bummer bummer bummer
my Samsung got stolen today
hilang segala updated contact info mereka2 sekalian
waaaaaaaa!!!!!!
x dapat la nk berdating ngn aweks2 n balaks2 semua

i'm going back in a week or so
so not berbaloi spending on a new phone anyway
my Nokia rosak sudah
dun wan to spend rm50 to go unlock my Sony Ericsson *cheapskate*

bongoks mane la yg berkenan sgt ngn phone aku tu
dat phone was so ancient n carries no value pon kalu nk trade in
so bijak lah!

the night

it would have been a perfect night
had we still what we used to be

in the back of my head

This won't break your heart
But I just think it could
Cause I haven't tried as hard as I should
To separate you from everything I do
But I would never want to come between us two

I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me

I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me

Now I'm thinking back
To what I said before
I hope your heart won't have to hurt anymore
Cause it's really not that sad from here
Because the moments I can feel you near
They keep you close to me my dear
And if they ever become too clear...

Now you've gone away
Don't worry it's ok
That you're gone away
Further than yesterday
But you'll never leave these scenes
My mind replays

where all the works takes place

this is my lil workspace back in Vista C when i first started medical school
reflects nothing of the life i lead at dat time
not dat i'm a messy person
just not a clean freak either heheh

i use my favorite posters from Galaxie magazines i collected during high school years as wallpaper so the paint doesn't peel off when i stick various notes n reminders etc on it
there's Britney when she's all naive n innocent, n the beautiful Brad Pitt in Meet Joe Black movie poster and Avril Lavigne cute in pink
i made my own monthly planner where i jot everything down
PBLs, classes, dates, birthdays
n i loves fames ames cookies so much i have the bag on the wall as well
can't remember wat i put inside it though

dat handbag was my 1st Guess handbag
n the choco Milk Teddy bag is my school bag from matriculation months -i only attend like 3 or 4 months then cabut to Sunway heheh-
just to emphasize i am a med students, all those medical books and pinky stethoscopes and the blue student id tag
several wedding reception gifts from Ice's bro wedding
dat small blue creature nestling in handphone holder also the blue crayon box containing coin for gayut sessions downstairs are things from the past
plastic container berisi serdak biskut raya pun finds its way to the table
*geleng2 kepala*

stuffs on the floor next to the table?
no need to mention
all of the junks and serba mak nenek u can find there

i bet all these still sits sumwhere in the small storage closet at home
i even still have stuff from primary school days

i keep most of my stuffs for the simplest reason
everything has deep sentimental value to me
and dat is a damn good enuf reason for me

i know, i have trouble letting go of my past
dat just who i am

in one morning...

i worked thru 5 ERPOC (evacuation of retained product of conception) today
in a span of less than 3 hrs
it's taxing, more mentally than physically
of course most of time i'm just observing but the anaestesiologist i'm working with today wants me to be part of the team
so i get to talk to the patient albeit brieftly, fill in the anest forms, help with transporting the patient in n out of OR

it's disheartening to see these women who mostly are of my age group forced to face such cruel fate
i can only imagine the pain of losing ur unborn child
one patient woke up after the procedure sobbing, as the wave of the realization of emptiness inside her hits
her baby no longer there...
one patient is already due on biological clock, miscarriaged the first round and the other time carrying her child ectopically
no joy of motherhood for her tis time either...

heartwrenching to see as the doctor puncture the amniotic sac and slides in the forceps
extracting wat could have been another bundle of joy and all dat's taken out are blobs of clots n mangled tissues
nothing resembling us...yet wat we used to be once

a small victory meant to be hugely celebrated

Today I successfully start an IV on a real patient
yeayness to me!!!